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2018 retrospective

thank u, next: a 2018 retrospective

2018 was easily the most difficult year of my life thus far: I left the startup that had occupied 99% of my time, thoughts, and (literal) tears without a backup plan; I had a quarter-life crisis that led me to doubt if my current field was the one that I actually wanted to be in; and my serious, long-term relationship ended suddenly, leaving me with under a month to find a new place to live.

It’s easy to focus on these negatives and to paint 2018 as a terrible year, but 2018 was also filled with so much light and growth:

  • I learned how to code and built two websites, completely from scratch, along with a handful of unfinished apps
  • I learned to be comfortable with both silence and being alone
  • I learned to love my own company
  • I learned how to put my own needs first
  • I experienced the rush of falling in love, even if it didn’t last
  • I made the difficult decision to switch fields and to go back to school (one more week until classes start!)
  • I was fortunate enough to visit Paris, my favourite city in the world, twice
  • I experienced the magic of Walt Disney World for the first time as an adult
  • I learned how to ask for help in a way that is productive and that is respectful of others’ time, energy, and boundaries
  • I learned that even the most stressful situations can be managed with the help of good friends, chocolate chip cookies, and lots of lists
  • I treated myself to all the concerts, including two nights in a row with Mumford and Sons

I start every year with the same wish: “[year], please be good to me.” While 2018 may not have been as noticeably good to me as I would have wanted, it was a year filled with growth and self-discovery, and I wouldn’t trade the learnings for anything.